I’ve been feeling pretty down lately. Mostly just about myself. I’ve dug myself a hole and it seems I’ll be pretty much be trying to get back out of for eternity. The idea that pretty much all of my earnings go towards bills and thats it, is seriously depressing. I have no motivation to do anything really, besides go to work. I’m so emotional, and in a bad mood lately, I’m probably destroying my relationship, really the only thing I have going for me right now. Travis is probably getting really sick of me, and falling out of love. :( Ugh, maybe its just the weather, but I really am unhappy with myself. I can’t exercise, theres hardly any room in my apartment to do yoga evan. Being in this mood doesn’t do much for my “creativity” so I haven’t been painting or even drawing. I don’t think I’ve really listened to any new music, old music, or any of my favorites; just the stuff on the radio. I swear if I have to listen to Kings of Leon or fucking Taylor Swift one more time I’m gonna freak. I know that I just need to stay positive and blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh, but its really kinda hard right now. I really hope I bounce back soon. I miss me :(
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wrkn @ 11 AM wooo, not s’much woo when I can’t sleep though. Does anyone remember the good ol’ days?
Im so sleepy; but not wanting to go to bed. My current tiffs just ooze into my dreams uncontrollably. I’m tired of waking up crying after envisioning my boyfriend loving, caressing and being with someone other than myself. D: What does that even mean? That even my subconcious knows I’m not good enough for him? I don’t know how long I can hold off the sleep. Heartbreaking dreams here I come. :(
